Am I losing sight of the forest for the trees?

The xray showed that the top teeth seem to have stagnated, in that the decay seems to have stopped but the lower teeth seem to have gotten worse but the dentist was not sure as the xray angle was slightly different than the last time. L was also complaining of stomach ache so the dentist thought that perhaps the headache and stomach ache were a related non-tooth issue. Well the stomach ache continued and I began to worry about appendicitis so off we went the next day to the ped. Turns out he had a virus which causes head, stomach and body ache. He stopped complaining about his teeth so he flew to Norway yesterday .. we are not sure if the teeth are still bothering him or not … but other than sedation and drilling, no way to tell. A and I both decided against an emergency sedation drilling the day before he was due to fly to Norway. Issue is now if he starts having pain in Norway, we have to fly back or have his teeth drilled or pulled there ..

Last night as I ate dinner alone, for the first time since this crazy tooth drama started, I felt no pressure about grain free bullshit … I ate my sweet potato and squash and hummus quietly .. it was amazing not having to get L to eat grain free food .... to not have the struggle ... to be able to eat in peace and quiet ....

and I have been wondering if I am doing this all wrong .. the amount of pressure I have put on us all to follow L’s diet (A does not and will not so L sees A eating GF bagels and cries for it) … I am beginning to feel it is not worth it .. I have to fight L and A to keep him on the diet … I am tired of fighting alone ..

I am sad that I have to say no to him so much and I have to push his bone broth smoothie on him so much …

For today, I am leaning towards throwing the towel in, stopping it all, scheduling the sedation and going for it all, root canals, caps and everything …

I don’t want to fight anymore …

I am not sure if I am creating behavioural issues in L with the frustration he feels when he is denied pizza and bread ...

In the grand scheme of things, is this worth it? His childhood is so short and so precious .... What am I doing?

I would curl into a ball and cry, but crying is a waste of time and energy ... 

Here is the xray from last week:

Here is the xray from March:

A made an animation gif that compares the two xrays. you can see the angle is slightly different between the two xrays.